Ronny Cammareri: Loretta, I love you. Not like they told you love is, and I didn’t know this either, but love don’t make things nice - it ruins everything. It breaks your heart. It makes things a mess. We aren’t here to make things perfect. The snowflakes are perfect. The stars are perfect. Not us. Not us! We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts and love the wrong people and *die*. The storybooks are *bullshit*. Now I want you to come upstairs with me and *get* in my bed!
I’ve been looking for the magic phrase, the secret code, the very thing that will unlock Petrichor’s heart. I keep wondering if there is an act or something I can do that will bring us closer together. Deanna drew a picture of a cock on a napkin for Jonah.
I’m screaming across an endless chasm. But he doesn’t hear. All I can do is continue to be the hoper of far flung hopes and the dreamer of improbable dreams. I need to transform my life so that I”m happy. If that brings me closer to Petrichor then great. If not I’ll be happy.
Oh #Petrichor. From the moment I met you, I’ve wanted to cuddle with you. The scarf is not helping to dissuade me of this desire. I am and always will be the hoper of far flung hopes and the dreamer of improbable dreams. But something tells me this might be the farthest of far flung hopes and the most improbable of improbable dreams. Right now I’d settle for watching him do stand up. I can’t figure out how to reach him.
CHRIS HARDWICK CAN I GET A HUG, I REALLY NEED ONE FROM YOU! I really really do. sigh. I miss you.
(adjective) In the list of one of the most 100 beautiful words in the English language, ineffable’s beauty lies in its flowing sound and meaning. Ineffable describes the sentiment of being unable to express something in words because it is too extreme to communicate; words cannot possibly do justice at this particular moment. (via wordsnquotes)
Find strength in your future self. That person has already done all this work and they are waiting for you to arrive. In twenty-four hours, in a week, in a year, you will be that person, and you’ll be looking forward, not backward.
Nicholas Petricca favorite words from one of my favorite humans. (via darksidedly)
Some people are scare to face the realization that life is meaningless and pointless. But there is freedom in that knowledge. There isn’t some magical ledger somewhere that has the days of your life all written out neatly. You aren’t here on earth to follow some script written for you. You are given the ultimate gift of time. You can fill this time with whatever you want to fill it with! The point is not to take this gift for granted. Don’t listen to the naysayers who say that you are too old, female, male, young, not the right race, not the right sexual orientation, not smart enough, etc. Be mindful of the how you fill your time. Fill it such that it brings you joy. Takes risks for even if you fail, that failure will give you the gift of knowledge. The tiny saxophonist in the front center, that’s me. I’m 45 years old and I’m about to start my 7th year in the URI Ram Marching Band. if you look at our half time shows, the only way you’d be able to spot me is by my pink saxophone. Finally, embrace the finality and pointless of life for it gives you the freedom to create your own life and not live by anyone’s standards.
Normally, in anything I do, I’m fairly miserable. I do it, and I get grumpy because there is a huge, vast gulf, this aching disparity, between the platonic ideal of the project that was living in my head, and the small, sad, wizened, shaking, squeaking thing that I actually produce.